Goodnight Moon (mismatchedsocks) wrote,
Goodnight Moon
mismatchedsocks

deadline: tomorrow.

i'm an absolute wreck right now.

do i stay? or do i go?

i have come to the first big decision of my adulthood. a decision nobody but me can make. a decision people can't even really help me with. the pros and cons of each situation are completely equal. i can't stomach the thought of losing my boyfriend, he's become such a huge part of my life. hell, he's become such a huge part of who i am. but i feel as though this trip would simply prolong the inevitable. it would only make it harder when i came back eventually and he couldn't come. i'd be in the same spot i'm at now. but on the other hand, what have i got to lose? i have the time and money to go, and i'd get to keep him for 6 more months. and it could be really fun. and who knows where it could go after that. but ultimately i don't actually want to move there. i'd be cheating myself if i stayed. and he can't move here.

but i love him.



but, but, but...
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